Blah! Pernikahan?

YES!!! Saya termakan omongan sendiri.... Keq3x.... Ternyata memang susah yah mundur dari tantangan sendiri.

Kencan dengan sang pria ambon bertato dan berambut keriting, dan memang dia itu memang sudah menangkap hati saya. Jiah! Gaya banget sih gw...

Anyways, I've spent already several times with him, dinner, watching movies, over some drinks, and a night at his house..... The more I know him, the more I put my interest to him.. In a way, he's different that the most guy I like or even love, perhaps for me, he's unpredictable... That's curious me a lot!

Talking over many things with him makes me have to prepare many topics, so I would see him or talk to him. Sometimes I don't know what to say, because, uhm... sometimes I got cold feet whenever I met him.. I'm so afraid that I couldn't talk or whatever... gggrrr...

Last night, we talked about commitment and stuff like that.... Commitment, marriage, until death do us part, those are heavy topics....

I used to not have the faith in marriage or whatsoever.... Because I was surrounded by affairs, divorces, unhappy marriages, those things made me at some point, I think I shouldn't get married, why not just living together, happy, have children, and when we just don't belong together anymore, just split, end of the story.... yeah, right.... lol... But somehow, some married couples opened my eyes, and I thought to myself, marriage isn't about just two people loving together, want to spend the rest together and have children together, but it should be about understanding, love, commitment, focus, faith in God, together.... Those are the things that needed in a marriage. Somehow, I want to feel those things, I want to share happiness, sadness with someone I love... Understanding, commitment, and together seek the answer to God in whatever we do... Yes, I want it...

Those sad experience around me shouldn't make me afraid of marriage, but should make me aware of the problems in a marriage.. Yes, that what should I do... keq3x...

So, what comes next? If God did send him..... :) because I'm ready for the process now.... :)

So????? :P Cekidot, gan!!!!