.....BLAH!....

Isn't it funny, when you've decided to step back, suddenly his images keep showing in your dreams? Hah! That's what I've seen in my dreams last night, and I woke up so confused. LOL... yeah, what's with the confusion? I dunno... U tell me...

and headache.. yeah.. headache all night long....

....Call me coward....

I'm stepping back from the game.....

Call me coward.... But I'm afraid.... Afraid of getting hurt...

Or I'm just hallucinating.... I don't know.... What I know is, I'm going to back off.....

Does he have the feeling for me? I don't know..... Finding out is...... I don't know how....

Do I have the feeling for him? If he knew......

I'm scared.... afraid.....

Call me coward.... But I don't know...

...........

Komitmen? 'I do'? Lari? Freak out?

Edan, dalam 1 hari bisa post 2 kali? Maklumlah, kalau lagi banyak yang dipikirkan, yah begini jadinya.

Lokasi saat ini sih lagi di Senayan City, lagi nangkring2 aja ama salah satu produser film gw, emang lagi apa yah, pengen melarikan diri aja dulu dari ktr. Pengen melarikan diri dari huru hara kantor pagi dan malam juga.

Mau ngomongin apaan yah? Uhm... Kondisi saat ini sih lagi... fragile, yes, that's the word. Mudah pecah euy.... Apalagi masalah hati, blah! cape deh, ha3!!! edan donk.... Mau dibilang kesepian, gak juga sih, gw lagi berusaha untuk mengikuti pertemuan2 teman2 kuliah gw, yang pada akhirnya jadwal mereka mengikuti jadwal gw, duh jadi gak enak. Well, sekarang itu yang terjadi sih. makasih yah teman2 sayang. :)

The Need To Move On

I realize, I need to move on, to be a better me, to have better life, and just make one step forward ahead....

SO, I've been busy again this last week, handling the other project from the other office, with one of the clients that flirts with me, on the phone! blah! I don't like him, because from the very beginning, I already drew the line between clients and me, but that doesn't mean my 'nice' attitude should be interpreted as 'I'm flirting with you so you can flirt with me', HELL NOO!!!! and i'm beginning to act not nice to him, but nice to his partners and bosses. Yes, and that doesn't feel right. :( Oh dear God, help me...

UPDATING!!!

It's been like ages I didn't update my blog. Oh well, because twitter and plurk, I really couldn't write anything more than 140 characters. LOL... So, here we go...

What recently happened with me? Not much, I've been living as 'unofficially' single for few months now, and somehow, I think I'm preparing myself to be officially single. It's hard though, but I have to try, love can be unrealistic, but now I have to learn to be realistic, to use my logic. That's hard... he3x...

What have I been doing? I've been doing many things, from my real job to my side jobs that would take my morning sleep... yeah, been lack of sleep almost 1 month, because I finished my side job in the morning, and most of them are post productions. Oh well, I'm having fun though with it. :)